Would You Know You?

Who would you be if no one you now know knew you?

What would you say about yourself?

What would you start with?

What would you say your hobby is?

What work you do?

How much you love it?

What it means to you, to your life to do what you do?

How could you see your intentions when you feel like you will die if things don't go your way?

How flexible are you to change of heart, of mind, when you are challenged?

Do you know who you are with Money and without it?

Are you generous when you are happy?

Are you mean when you are mad?

Do you think about the other persons point of view when you are in a disagreement?

Do you go out of your way to say thank you when you are thankful?

Is expressing yourself in times of argument easy for you?

When someone speaks to you, and tells you an observation of you

Do you get defensive or do you consider that they spoke this to you for good reason?

When you speak to someone, do you consider how you would respond to be spoken to in the same way?

These are a lot of questions

Questions of self definition

Of who you are inside and what it looks like on the outside

People are not blind, and never are we within ourselves

Sometimes it is just a matter of answering your own questions, that reminds you of who you are

Where you are when it comes to dealing with yourself, your life, and if you are just passing time

Or using time to grow your soul, in your truth, without trying to be something you are not yet ready to be

Or standing still too long before you act and then feeling like you can not catch up

Define yourself and you will see better what you are looking for

Wanting that comes from heart, rather than all the other reasons that leave us feeling unfulfilled

Trust in your ability to answer such questions

And Trust the rest will come as you go along

There is not ever only one answer

Yet only one answer will lead you to the rest

Who would you be if no one you now know knew you?

Tell yourself out loud as though you were speaking to another

Hear your words and find your truth in them

It is already there, waiting for you to notice

It is simply time to take on more of you

We always know when

It is just that we can't start anything

Without actually starting

Start with the questions and your mind will do the rest

All you need to do is plant the seed

Imagine meeting you

Would you know you?

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The Music Of Love

One day we wake up singing

A song to a happy tune

Without a prompt or a reason

Without music or noise

Only the excitement of seeing you

Today we are getting married

Saying Yes to each other

without further ado

Love is the trail we followed

Learned each other in safety and grew

Let our ugly find itself, showed it to you

You said, Hey that's OK

I am still here for you

I learned me through you

You told me the truth

You speak to me, it is not only you

It is you and me, and we are two

There is strength in numbers

When the two are in truth

Someone to say to you

this works for me too

Love is not a show

or does it come with a map

Love's design is to teach us

And build life without holes, without traps

It is a place of safety

To speak that I am still OK

Even when I don't feel like it

Even when I am too tired to see my way

One of us is always leading

Learned partnership that way

Each day is an open conversation

Of all we can share and build, a story page by page

Nothing comes all at once

It would leave us dry and bored

Love comes in surprises

Of all we thought it could not be

Love is the surprise of our souls

When it show me, me

The more I can see of me

The more I find in you

The treasures of us as people

And adding the love in there too

Thank you for saying

when you do this it hurts me

It made me see you

and you taught me to care

As you show me how you care for you

I have learned to care for me

I find that the more I learn

I more I understand you

The greater my challenges

that eliminate the feelings of something I can not say

You opened the door of my soul

With your openness to me

You teach me to be

Without trying to be better than me

I realize there is nothing you could want

Other than to tell me the truth

I realize there is nothing I can give

Other than my purity to you

Love is invisible

Yet it is felt in its strength

It is the bond we can not see

Yet the bond of everyday

Love is not a person, a place or a thing

Love is my emotion, that I bring to each day

Love is my compass of where I go, and where I stay

Love is the open ended answer

As many questions as it presents

It is those very questions

Whose answers are fought for

And learned of

That teaches my soul

Its one main purpose

To love, honor, and live

In today, in the present

I stand before myself in completeness

As I see it in you

No fear in growing further

No lines drawn in the sand

No more saying what if....

It is here that I stand

I stand for us

The "us" we have become

The world that we built

With those that we love

The house that we fill

With our everyday of thoughts

The home that we carry

Everywhere we go

Love is not physical

You have taught me

Thank you, my love

My love's freedom

That I have come to see

Thank you, my love

We are an "us"

And still a "you" and a "me"

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A Bottle of Hope

What does it look like when we have hope?

We walk faster

We talk more

We involve others

We try new things

We wear different colors

And we insist on trying until we succeed

We sing to songs

We listen to others

It is not so important that we are “right”

We need less sleep

We don't over eat

We exercise

And we say good morning

We listen to “happy” music

We dance while we are walking

We see someone who is having a bad day and we say we are sorry

We help someone who needs it

And we accept help when we need it

Hope is the promise of our souls capacity

Hope is the reason we remember why we are alive

Hope is the person who reminds us

That Hope is always nearby

Hope reminds us that love is available

As hope is the purpose of our actions

Whatever it is that we hope for,

We are in hope when we feel promise

Promise of ourselves in our highest honor

Honor of actions and what they may mean

Hope is the rainbow after the rain

The cool drink on a hot day

The right words as you needed them

The smell of something baking while you are asleep

The bath where you actually sit in the water

The moment you walk by someone you haven't seen in years

The check that comes in the mail you didn't expect

The willingness to understand if something doesn't work out

Hope is the basis, the reason

That we have an incentive to grow on

To say I'll try

To change directions

And to know ourselves well enough to say no when we are stretching ourselves too thin

Hope is not being scared when the check is not in the mail

Someone we thought was right for us isn't and we understand why

And the love of self enough to know all of these things are simply a part of life

Hope is alive as we are alive

Hope is the possibilities of our hearts

Given a forum to test, push and pull the best of ourselves

And find the depth in which we can be

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Bring Me A Higher Love

Your higher self is talking
And you speak to it that it is not possible
That you are not good enough or strong enough to be that person

Your higher self tells you you are that person
And you should at the very least try
That you have nothing to lose
That even an embarrassing moment is a story of truth to speak about in love

Your higher self is you without boundaries and limits
That only you can put in and only you can release
Your higher self is your capability
Your ability
Neither of which know the word NO

Imagine if the word NO did not exist
Boy would the freedom of our souls be happy!
There would be no answer that can not be had
There would be a way to find to do almost anything you thought of

Capability just means to know
Ability means to try
To know and To try
To see if it is yours to grow more with
Or to let it take you to something else

Your higher self is your purpose
Not broken down into smaller parts,
It is the sum of the smaller parts that build you up to it

It is a higher love to see your higher self
And a soul that says I will because I can and I can because I will
Anything less than that is because you really don't want it yet

I say yet, because the day will come to you
That you can see yourself do it
And it will find a path, an avenue or a bridge
To take you there

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Think Love, Create Love

As Love starts to teach you
Who you are
When you think of sharing your home, your heart, your family
It tells you the best of you
As you present it all new
To a person that you feel love to
In a way that you always do

Love is not fantasy
Nor is it reality
Love is between both
That is the excitement of it all

When you think of love
Do you notice how you are in the best thoughts of who you are?

Some of us wait for new love to feel such open feelings towards ourselves
As though it is the only way we can feel it
Getting to the truth of things, you can feel this on your own
You see, love is love is love

There isn't one kind of love
Love is so open, it is in everything
That feeling of presenting your life to someone new
It is already present

As you build your life with love for yourself
That love, that excitement, that truth of you put out there
It gets to be present
And when it is present
It attracts those who are of love in that way too

Who understand that Love is love is love
That Love is a part of their every day
That anyone who comes to them leaves with love
That the more complete they already are
The more complete those that are attracted to them are

Everyone is attracted to a person who is already love
Already happy
Young children
Elders
Pets
And all other people

You start wondering what is different about you
And it is the new feeling of love, all the time
The belief that you are capable to have love
Simply to know it enough to feel it in heart
To live it in form
To stand within yourself
And understand it is a state of mind
And acceptance of heart
And lost ego to humble truths
That love is for all of us, even you

No one left out
Knowing Love doesn't replace challenge
It just makes it easier
That love gives answers that anger or feeling lacks of love can not see
Love is the freedom
Of your thinking and the compassion of your heart unto yourself
It is the opening of giving yourself a break
And the Love that comes with that knowing that you are OK

Even you, seems so far away at time
Love doesn't know the words, even you, even me, No to this or that
Love finds a way to say Yes
Yes to life, Yes to sharing, Yes to understanding
That love is simply life when it is understood and happy
Love is that smile you can't help
And the truth of why we are here
To learn to let go
Enough to open your heart
To follow the flow
Of love in life
That isn't meant to let go of even you!

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The Space Between You and You

Believe in yourself
And don't allow yourself not to
Speak your truth
And don't allow yourself to judge you
Wear what you love
And don't allow yourself to take away the joy of it

Say you can when you think you can't
Do what you say you would never be able to
And try foods that aren't "you"

Go to a movie alone
And buy yourself some popcorn
Treat yourself to a walk
Listen to music that isn't music you would normally listen to
And you will start seeing that you can adapt
That you can take in and enjoy what is new
That you too can be new

We think our job is to stay who we are
Be who we are
Act like who we are
And whoever said how, what or who we are means?

We are who we think we are, that is who
We are the person who can try things, leave things that aren't right for us
And build things from simple thoughts in our heads

Believing in ourselves starts with the thoughts of our hearts being acknowledged
And then acted on
And then expanding out of our comfort zone

We are meant to be a little uncomfortable at times,
otherwise we have no stresses to move us along
And we are meant to not be too uncomfortable for then we know what is not right for us

We always know what we believe,
yet we need to trust what we know
and then we can see
That belief is not a trick or for someone else,
Belief is available
And once you believe one thing,
It is so much easier to find other things to believe in
It is the growth of your soul, one step at a time
One moment to another
One decision to do so at a time

How silly it is to say no
When the fight inside wants to say yes
Let the walls of very hard years of keeping them there
know they are on notice
Put your heart on notice
That you will be taking on the walls
and walking around them

We don't have to wait for a good day
To say we are going to try anything
Today is a moment that you can look in the eye
And say in this moment I want to do something about what I have been thinking
And just see what happens

Believing in yourself doesn't come easy
Nor cheap at times,
But believing in yourself does bring on an inner glow
One that stands over you, guides you,
When you start to give up or forget why you are trying
Believing in yourself
Leaves the excuses behind

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Your Soul Is Not Your Body

We are trying to tell the world that our body is our soul
We found ways to fill our bodies
Change our bodies
Keep our bodies from aging
Dressing younger or older depending on what we are trying to accomplish

And then if someone is disabled we think they are less or need more help than us
And if they are sick we get scared because it could be us
And if they are dressed 'better' than us we actually think they are 'smarter' than us
And a bigger house only reminds us that we are not as 'successful'

Yet, I am writing this and if you didn't know me, you wouldn't know anything about me
All you would hear are my words,
You would feel my feelings for a moment of your life
You would share the love I feel in writing this, as I am writing it

Love doesn't look like anyone
Love isn't meant only for some
Love isn't meant to be looked for
Or "learned" how to be
Love is open and free
Love doesn't have eyes or ears
Love only has feelings and instinct
Love protects all that comes our way
When we know enough about its freedom to let it

I found by writing that my soul is not my body
My heart is my soul
My body is just the way I get around
And everyone else too
Your body is the car of your soul
It takes your intentions, your thoughts, and it drives them into action
Your body will do anything your soul will ask of it
But your soul can not do anything your body asks of it

I remember most, that I always remember, what it felt like when I left someone
More than what we looked like or where we were
We leave with the emotions
That is why at times when we are not dressed and our guard is down,
Those days, they seem to be the best days we have
We are exempt from the race to be anything
Did you notice you are least shy when you are most open?

We can take a lesson from those of us whose bodies can not do what we do,
And still they are happy
Their secret is the truth of their soul's exposed
And we too, can learn
To let the body be a part of us and include our soul
It does not have to be one or the other, we simply can understand our purpose better
When we let the truth of us show itself, rather than expecting our love from the outside in

No one can ever walk away from an open heart
Truth is a magnet for its strength
And truth wears no masks!

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Never Mind Why, Simply Do What is Right

It doesn't take explanation to do what is right
To do what makes things better
To say what needs to be said

Either side of the coin
When things are tough, tell the truth
When things are not, tell the truth

There is no sense in creating stories to make things seem more exciting
The excitement is in how much you love it, telling it that way
And giving someone else a chance to live it with you too

We always think everything has to be bigger, better or worth hearing
That we have to have a punchline or a reason for saying something

It is so much simpler than that
Tell the truth from your heart
And your heart will do the rest

When there is a moment where telling the truth
Is something you do not want to do
It has nothing to do with the other person at all

Ask yourself, why is it that you feel like you can not?
Why is your safety an issue?
Is your self esteem unable to accommodate truth?
Is lying something you want to carry around?
Do you want to create distance between you and the other person?
Do you not have respect for yourself enough to simply speak and grow on?
Do you prefer the dramas of lying that cause you to not trust others?

Most who do not tell the truth
Think others are lying
Are the ones who accuse others of doing things, being things they are not
Do not like to discuss details
Nor do they enjoy the fruits of self accountability

They are the ones who fear their positions
Their posts in life
That their charminess will wear out
That their cover will be blown
That maybe they are a fraud altogether

They will claim to have everything under control,
As if they had to
They will tell you how great they are
As if you needed to hear that

When someone speaks with their heart
they even allow for those who don't
Time to speak, and hear themselves talk
Simply because they already believe they will speak from the heart
And when they find out that is not what is happening
They start feeling used, without words or actions yet

As time passes and you are in a relationship
You start to realize that the other person doesn't pay attention to you they way you do to them
That when THEY are happy you are OK, when THEY are NOT, you are in Trouble
The balance shifts to their moods and the one with heart accommodating the one who speaks in exaggerations of truth and you are left realizing that maybe you have chosen a person who lives in the illusions of their truth and it all is not so real

Getting to know another person is for these reasons alone
Is this a person you can depend on
Does this person bring you peace and joy
Warmth or comfort
Or are you more fractured with them and more whole without them

A job, a friend, a partner, a spouse
All the souls who find their way to us
Teach us who we are by what we do not accept from them
They Hone us into speaking up
Fighting for our own souls
Making our way without questions as to what is right or wrong,
however, what we are RIPE enough to learn

We can only learn what we are ready for
And others may serve as a catalyst for such learning's
Or they may be a soul we are meant to share much more of ourselves with and life with

We try to make everything "forever"
yet there is no time
There is a bigger picture
And some things are meant to teach us for a moment
And others are meant to carry us for a lifetime

Accept life for the challenges it gives you
And you will see that life will always have a challenge for you
It will always always remain and be
Your level of understanding
And your willingness to learn that will carry you
Once you can see that
The turmoil's of what to do, how to be, what to say, and what not to say are already answered

Our energy proceeds us
And we speak without speaking words
Trust in the bigger picture of our purpose can carry you through the moments of indecision
Clairty of your purpose
Knowledge of your soul
Understanding that you are not meant to be everywhere at once
Gives you the basis and understanding that you WANT to be where you at least choose to be
And the places you choose to be will allow you to experience them whole

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Choose Love

Walk away from those who let you down
Walk away from those who do not care that they hurt your feelings
Walk away from those who set you up
From those you know will talk about you if you mess up

Learn to walk away, rather than prove anyone wrong
It only takes your energy into the black hole they have created for you to fall within

You are allowed to say NO
You are allowed to find Love
You are allowed to find peace
You are entitled to enjoy your time

We forget that we can say NO
To what hurts our energy and takes away our speed
That which reminds us of failure rather than our hearts success
We are all as successful as we see ourselves
We are all as weak as we believe others will speak of us

We must remember that those that talk about us
are only doing so from their own weakness and their desire to weaken others with them
So that they will not be alone in the below the radar behaviors they take on
To caste worry, fear and doubt to anothers soul

We must take part in our hearts desire to take care of ourselves
By allowing what we love to enter our thoughts rather than just the one person who keeps finding a way to challenge it
Your challenge is to challenge that energy and realize that anyone who can take you away from you, you need to take yourself away from

You can attempt, however learn from your attempts
And learn that you can run, not walk away, when you begin to understand you are depleting rather than building
That you are not of true benefit to this soul, nor are they to you
That you can learn from each other at a distance
Rather than the closeness that has come to rob you both of yourselves

Love gives
When giving is not present neither is love
Choose Love
And Love will find a way for you
Love is the can opener of every can you have stored in your cabinet
Some have been there for years
Go back and let them open and those that have expired
Accept that they have and go on
That is one of the paths of self love that opens you up to less storage and greater freedom of your soul
Choose your Soul
And there you will find your true movement
Your content
And your willingness to go forward

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Blueprint for Life

What we need:

We need a political party that represents both the poor and the rich
We need credit cards that are not designed to keep you in debt
We need mortgages that are simple and clear and no fine print
I am thinking no fine print on the credit cards either

We need less pressure to have more work in a day
And more pressure to balance time to work, sleep, eat, and sit with your family
We need more pressures to complete tasks without so many steps
Be able to have a doctor to go to
Buy all the food that we need
Go to a Library to read

We need more pressure to build our neighborhoods,
Know our neighbors
Say Hello with nothing more to say

We need moments to catch up and rejuvenate
Leaders that we can depend on
Jobs we can grow in
Homes we can keep forever if we want to

We need streets that we all keep clean
Area's our children can play in without fear within the parent or the child
Homes that aren't behind iron gates

We need water we can drink
Streets without litter
People not living on streets
Care for those who can not care for themselves

We need to stop the blame
That someone who isn't ahead does not deserve time or a chance to gain ground
That people who need help are not to be walked by
That people who can help don't believe it is a choice

We need the love inside of us to not accept what is not working in our lives
We need to hear politics that makes actual sense, without explanation
Without fine print
Without loyalty to any party
However loyalty to US, people

People are a party
People are a race
People are of religion
People need food
People need homes
People need learning institutions
People need each other
People need love

There is no soul on Earth more important than another
When we can come to the thoughts that anyone is here by mistake or isn't worthy of what People need or want
Then we have lost already

There is no Them, since everyone is a them to someone
There is only an US, since we all share this same place called Earth
It includes US, Animals and Nature
And everything else is only a reflection of our needs, wants and desires

When you look around and find something to complain about
Look around again and find something you can do
That is balance
Pick up trash that you see when you can
Smile to another and remind them WE are here, there is not really a me and a you
Remember that there is no way anyone can do this alone
There is no way any leadership can work without people, nor can people find order without some kind of leadership

We each have a job to do,
We have a job to live and experience and grow
Yet we spend so much time trying not to change, to keep everything the same
Yet nothing is really meant to stay the same
It is meant to evolve and allow itself to find greater growths in each day

Most of our frustrations come when we feel we haven't done enough
Or we have done too much and no one notices

It is simply important that you notice
You see, if you notice, it can only be shared
And all the sharing of what you see, can only be felt
And feeling drives our actions
And ignites another

Anything can happen
As love finds a way to propel
That is how it is when you are thinking something
And then one day see it on TV,
Or hear another speaking about it

We are one
We hear it, we say it, and we can now learn how to be it
Everything has a blueprint and we are the blueprint of life

Life is the answer to why we are here
Living is how we do it
Awareness is how we know what to do
And love is the fuel of it all

Love is our true leadership
Love is our stem
And Love is our search
Keep loving and you have already begun the movement
The movement of living life as you can dream it
And dream it as your life gives you answers
And answers keep you thriving for more

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Emotional Detox

Instead of I can't do this
I will try this new thing

Instead of I won't go there
Go and see what you were missing

Yellow doesn't look good on me?
Wear Yellow

Never gone back and said you are sorry to someone from years ago?
Call them now

Your closet need cleaning?
Don't get dressed one morning and just start cleaning it

Wanted to cook and instead are planning to grab something on the run?
Cook

Keep thinking of going for a walk?
Go and Walk

Keep thinking to plan a get together at your home?
Start making phone calls

Love to cook and never have the ingredients?
Buy them and stock them, you will always be ready

If there is someone you really love and you have never told them
Tell them and expect nothing back

You see it isn't what you are doing
It is what we are not doing to each other
It is what we are not saying
Not sharing

Cleaning ourselves from the inside out
Is to give our soul free reign as to who we are
Without shutting out the beautiful parts, always on our way to them

Wash your car
Use the bathroom before you leave
Say thank you when you normally wouldn't
And I love you to someone you do

Say you made a difference
And notice how you do too
Let the world you see be noticed by you
And the world will find a way to notice you too

Our souls are not our bodies
Our souls are our actions
Our love that we take the time to do and to share

Our love is all we have
When we are far away from love we feel far away from life
And when we are far away from life we say we want love

No more saying what we want and acting as though it is not right in our face
It is all right in front of our faces, and we are making choices to postpone, not say, not share today,
All that makes a difference to our lives

It is the invisible not eating when we are hungry
Because we have free will to have a choice
How about surprising your will
And letting it know how free it is

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Don't Be True to Me, Be True to You

You tell me about yourself by what you say you do
If you ask me not to tell another something,
You ask that of someone else too

If I see you lie to another person
You most likely lie to me too

If you wash your hands before you eat
I know you wash everything else too

If you are OK with taking something that isn't yours
You will take me for what isn't yours

If you talk about others
Then you talk about me too

You see it isn't what you confide in me
Confidences need not be
Open and free is truth
Truth doesn't need an introduction
Or a premise or a thought

Truth just is
Just was
Will always be

You are not any different in front of me
Than behind me, when there is truth

We ask of each other many things
One thing I ask of myself

To tell you the truth
So that you know I am truthful
To treat you with respect,
Then you know I am respectful

To clean up after myself
So that you know to clean up after you
To leave you feeling clair
So that you know my intentions are clear

You see we learn a lot from each other
As we hear, see, and take part of each other
And we react to each other from that truth we see

Take part in your life
So that you can take part in anothers

Your children don't hear you as loud as they see you
Your friends can see you for what you have done, rather than what you say you have done
Your parents know who you are, rather than who they think you are
And your heart knows your truth no matter what you try to say

Truth is here
It waits for us to be it
We wait for us to know it
We say we are looking for it,
Yet it is here, and you already know of it

So use truth instead of using excuses to evade it
Let truth lead you rather than what you want to be truth
No need to take non truths and make them true
Stop wasting your time
Stop taking away from something that is already in front of you
And creating drama's to prove your point

With truth there is no point, there is only acknowledgment
Evading truth is like waiting for a train that is not coming
Use the clues of your life to bring you to speaking the truth for what it is
Because once you are true to you, you can be true to me

Once you start speaking with your heart
I want to be in your heart too
Once you start cleaning around yourself, I will clean with you
Once you cook a meal with clean hands, you will feed everyone

Wash your life with truth and let truth create THE PATH
There is not a path, truth is THE PATH
Anything else finds a way of leaving us feeling shortchanged and hungry
Truth is the breath of our souls
And the soul of your breaths
As you can share your heart when you feel it's purity
As your purity is the most becoming feature of any of us

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Shopping for Love

What do you get when you give?
What do you give to get?
When you give it is a feeling of exhilaration that is addicting and self growing
It is like that plant that doesn't even need water to grow

I was walking into a store the other day
And a lady was on the ground dragging herself to a bag
She had fallen and she was too heavy to get up
At first she seemed like she had a method so I was just going to go into the store
Then I saw her dragging herself and I was wondering if that is just how she got out of her car and did her business

But then I was just curious so I went to her and asked her if she needed help.
she told me that her daughter was going to come out of the store in a minute, that she is in line
That she walked out of the store and was holding onto a pole to hold herself up
And that she let go of the pole and she fell

So I asked her if I can get her daughter or help her up
She told me we would have to find a big man to do that
Then her daughter came out and when she saw her mother on the floor she ran to her and asked her what happened.
She didn't seem to expect her there

The daughter and I both managed to get her to her feet again
And they were both so grateful
So I was about to leave and they asked me my name
Before I could tell them
The relief on their faces was the very relief I felt to have helped them

It was the smallest of things, yet it was bigger than me at the same time
I got tears in my eyes and I couldn't tell them my name
I was just silent and they were staring at me

It took me a minute and then I could speak my name
I walked away as though someone cleansed me
Like making this very small difference to people I would most likely never see again

It made everything I thought about my own life as new as it felt to fall into this family's circle unexpectedly
It reminded me how much we care about each other without thinking of it
And it is when we think too much that we start playing the taking away game from ourselves

So I went to the store and didn't find what I went there for
A little later that day I was thinking about not finding what I went there for
When it occurred to me that I found exactly what I went there for

That when we go to a store we are buying love of some kind to ourselves
And that lady on the sidewalk was the love that day
I left more fulfilled than anything I could have purchased
More cleansed and appreciative of people

We forget sometimes how much emotion there is when we touch each other in this way
How good it feels to share a strength we may have more than another
And accept their strength when ours is not with us
We build a wall that makes us think we are not in need

We are all needy and it has nothing to do with food or money
It has to do with our emotions catching up to the other advances in our lives
As we can balance, life looks differently and "needs" much less to fulfill it

If we step back from the wall
Only then can we see it
And walk around it

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A Glimpse of Self Love

Are you scared to love me?
Does it show that I am scared to love you?
Maybe it is because I don't know how to love me either?

I have been trying to figure out how to love myself
for many years now
I still am not sure what that looks like to say, I love me, I love you too

When I don't love me the most
I get scared that you won't love me either
When I love me the most
I know you will be with me forever

I use to think of loving myself as selfish
Then I use to think it was all in my ego to do that
Then I realized when I was happy inside, selfish and ego weren't an issue
That I just wanted to spend time with you because I love you
Again when I was happy

And then I wake up and I am not so sure how I feel
And I take it out on you
Accusing you of things that were OK the day before
I found out when I am not happy, you will not be happy with me either
As I try to take it out on you so I don't have to face me

How do I love me?
So that I can love you
I was sitting on the floor one morning
On my way to an important meeting
And across from me was a mirror

I took a quick glance only to see myself sitting on the floor tying my shoe
When I looked up, I didn't see me, I saw a person, sitting on the floor, tying their shoe
It was a weird moment, however I realized I WAS a person
I stared at myself from a distance
I realized I looked like the people I see, not the person I know

I started talking to myself
I told myself,
You have a big meeting today,
I wish you well

When I said that I started to cry
It felt so good to care about me
Like the words of a dear friend
I continued talking

As I cried, I said, I am going to take care of you my friend
I am your friend
I see you wake up everyday, rush to get ready,
Yet I realized I never really see you at all

I am sorry I never looked
I judge you so harshly
And you are just making a way for yourself,
What ever that is

I promise to do right by you
From this moment forward
I will understand when you don't think you have done well that you have done your best
And I also promise not to hurt you more with the words in my head that take away from me
I will remind myself that you did your best and maybe it was not meant to be for you

I also promise that when things are going great to let you enjoy those moments for what they are
A part of life that keeps you motivated to do the rest of it
And I will remind myself that every purpose has a challenge and every challenge has a purpose
And that we are a team, My Heart, My Soul and My Mind

I will do right by you,
I will not let myself forget that you care and that I care
As my Heart and Soul spoke to my Mind
I realized still that I am one, yet at times there feels like there are two of me
One that loves and one that is harder on me than anyone I know

I sat on that floor and saw myself new that day
I got up and left feeling like I have a partner within myself
That I can be whole and awake to my actions
That I can do right by myself

And with that, that I understand what it means to do right by others too
They ARE me and I AM them
Just as I have the voice in my head that either cheers me on or stops me in my tracks
Joining myself with myself,
Gives me the path to join myself with you
I can love you more when I know what it feels like to love me more

Love can only propel once it knows that it is there

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