Oversexed and Underloved

As we walk around all day and all we could think of

Is who we love, if only they loved us, How we can love someone more or less

We dress to attract

We watch movies that are themed in sex even if it isn't the topic

We drive by strip clubs, bars, billboards of complete communication that you may find love because of a product

We work out our bodies, eat certain foods, stand at the sunset, go to the beach

We listen to music all in one way or another are about happy love, sad love, misguided love or lost love

We strive for love

Look for love

Dress for love

Drive for love

Our house is to show how we love

Our car is show our worth of love

Our conversations say we are alluring enough to know for love

Our loneliness tells us we must fight for love

And then we find another to love

And we are still bombarded with the stimulus to love

All around us

And as time goes on we think, now we can do better at love

Not this person or that

Not this car

Not this house

I want new, new, new

I want to feel new at love

I don't want to try at love

I already know this person

I want to start over and know another person

That special feeling of love is gone

It is not gone

It is you that is gone

It is you that stopped giving, receiving, sharing

It is you that decided you would rather start again than to learn to be on the "other" side of love

The side that takes you beyond sex

The side that says I have been here and I found out this person really is beautiful when they are loved

that I feel beautiful to be loved with calmness around me

that I don't need the drama's to prove I am loved

I don't need to flirt around to prove I am worthy of love

I don't need to Use anyone else to feel loved

That I could accept love to me

When you want to run away from another and start again

It could be you that it is meant to move on that you understand this isn't the depth of love you know you can feel

You usually know that right away and stop dating

Yet if you have been with someone for a long time and you loved them deeply

Then you do love them

It is not that they are bad because you already know them

Discover them as they are known

Live in their worth of themselves as you discover your own worth

take life on with them as though they are new

You see they are new

New to themselves

New to others

And new to you if you can see it that way

We tend to take away the beauty when we get edgy within ourselves

Sometimes we don't feel we deserve love so we look for sex to tell us we are loved

Sex and love have very little to do with each other these days

Sex is an act you can do with anyone and not even know their name

Love is a feeling that carries you in all of life, starting with first knowing your parents to everything else you know through out life

Sex is a stimulant and a beautiful thing

Yet we all find out in life if you are having sex with out love you can leave a room emptier than when you walked into it

For men sex is a notch

A proof positive that he is alive and vital

And for women sex is a proof of being loved and accepted

Sex is neither of those things

Sex is love's truth

Sex is loves sharing

Sex is the closest way to commit your intimacy to yourself and another

And we have taken sex and used it

we use sex to sell everything from gum to newspapers

We use sex to say we are worth something

We use sex to hurt others

We use sex to hurt ourselves

It is paid for

It is bought

It is sold

It is non discriminatory to children in ways most of us couldn't conceive

And we found out that sex is special when it is with someone special

It is even better when we are committed to another in a way that we don't commit anywhere else

We are meant to be partners, not alone

And yet we are not truly meant to have many at once

It is confusing at best

And the jealousy's and arguments, status of who is more important and more love would never end

Sex is the gift of love

We simply realize that sex is a gift period

We forget the love part

Yet without it sex is oversold and over rated

It is a picture or a way we are supposed to act

Sex is a part of life

A release and expression

A fast moment at times

A slow day at other times

Sex is the story of our hearts

And we write that story

And it will become what we look for

When we settle our love settles and our sex feels like nothing

And when we look for love we find that love carries sex, like the love of life carrying us

WE are free to understand other things once we can say sex is beautiful from heart

And until we can say that and understand who we are in love and sex

We will look for it until we do

that is why we have so many lookers and trying souls

they want to find it, live in it's secrets and grow to greater depths of life

that is the treasure at the end of the rainbow

And that is when you find out the glory of any rainbow is seeing the colors in it

And the treasures present themselves along the way

Sex is over sold

And we can change that in a minute

We can say, I want to know people

I want to know myself

Enough to feel that my truth is present when the rest of me is

I don't have to "present" myself

If I "present myself" then I will only meet someone else who is "presenting" themselves

If I am me, I will find someone who is them

And then I could ask for what I want and need and I can grow and learn

If I am selling, I will only find someone who is buying

And If I am buying, I will always know I can return or exchange

I no longer want to play buying and selling

I want to feel love, and learn to accept it in heart not in body a lone

I no longer want to be underloved as I have underloved myself for a long time

I want love and as I have the energy of wanting love, I am sure to know it when I see it

It is usually the love I have been passing by, as I was looking for sex

I won't stop short at sex anymore, i will only continue to look for love anyway

I will look for love and know that when I can see love in others, it is when I have found it in myself

No more waiting for someone to notice

People notice those who notice themselves

In politeness to life, to others and to life again

Everyone is attracted to the beauty of feeling loved, I don't care who they are

Attract yourself to love and love will not let you forget it is there

It will only grow you in teaching you how to work with it without fear of it

I say over and over again

It is not what YOU would do in any situation of life

Keep asking yourself

What would LOVE do?